"I always had a conflicted relationship with it," she says.
"On one hand, I wanted to stand up there and receive recognition as gratefully and graciously as possible, and on the other hand, I felt conflicted. I've just never believed in competition with art. It's like saying, 'Orange deserves the award this year and green and blue and pink don't."
"My fantasy would be if all awards shows went away. That would be the best."
source: canadian press