The incredible Jesy Nelson is our June cover star! In her first interview since leaving Little Mix, Jesy chats candidly to @FelicityHayward about the moment she knew she had to leave the band, her mental health, and getting back in the studio: https://t.co/qd4cUMorcp pic.twitter.com/WDxXyJtCjO— Cosmopolitan UK (@CosmopolitanUK) May 4, 2021
Jesy Nelson, formerly of Little Mix, does her first interview since leaving the band.
(1) She mentions that going back to business-as-usual after the calm of lockdown and the video for "Sweet Melody" was the breaking point for her (which may explain her being left out of that transition sequence??)
Jesy Nelson reveals that being on set of the music video for “Sweet Melody” after lockdown was her breaking point:— Pop Crave (@PopCrave) May 4, 2021
“I immediately became a different person. I had anxiety. Whenever we had a music video, I put an enormous amount of pressure on myself to try and lose weight.” pic.twitter.com/Z9lzftSC3u
- "There’s a scene in Sweet Melody I’m not in, because that’s when I had a panic attack and broke down. I was like,"I just want to go home." I was sobbing in the dressing room. Someone really close to me said, "This has got to stop. You can’t keep doing this to yourself. You’re going to end up where you were before."
(2) She addresses the whole "She wants to leave for her mental health but then goes right back to making music???" thing:
Jesy Nelson sets the record straight to @CosmopolitanUK on why she is currently in the studio so soon after leaving Little Mix to focus on her mental health:— Pop Crave (@PopCrave) May 4, 2021
“I was coming out of the band because I genuinely couldn’t deal with the pressure of being in a girl band.” pic.twitter.com/yOyE0heEfF
Some quotes connected to her distinguishing making music to being in a girl band:
- "Now I’m on my own, I can genuinely wear what I want to wear. Before, I was wearing what I thoughtI should wear, because I was too frightened to wear certain things incase I looked bigger than the others. I’d wear corsets and shit like that to make myself look the size they were."
- "I didn’t know that I could be this happy. I thought when I was in the group that it was just normal to feel that way. And because I’d felt like that for 10 years, I just thought, "This is life." Since I’ve left, I feel free. I don’t wakeup with anxiety, thinking, "I’ve got to do a music video today, I need to starve myself." Or, "I need to go on an extreme diet so I can look like the other three." That was consuming me."
- "I looked at the other three and they were having the time of their life. I get so jealous, because I want to feel like that and enjoy it, because music is my passion. To have this dream and not be enjoying it because of what I look like, I knew wasn’t normal."
- "I don’t have to worry about having a music video or doing an interview wearing an outfit that I don’t want to wear because three other girls want to wear it."
- "It wasn’t nice for the other three to be around someone who didn’t want to be there. So I took a break. I went through a really dark time after the music video. My mum said, "This has got to stop now. I have seen you suffer too much. This has been 10 years of your life."
(3) She also did this vid:
WARNING: the make up is .......... hm
Anyway, she mentions "the girls" and "my girls" sporadically, but that's about it for mentioning Leigh, Perrie and Jesy; stans are either heartwarmed or heartbroken by this.
This interview really does answer some questions I had about her departure tbh; but despite the tanning and as someone who suffers major depression I am genuinely happy she's in a better place! Also stream Confetti and go like Leigh's pregnancy announcement on insta
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