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Tess Holliday reveals eating disorder diagnosis

https://instagram.com/p/COVvFzTHbSx


The model revealed on Instagram that she is currently in recovery for anorexia nervosa.

"I'm anorexic and in recovery. I'm not ashamed to say it out loud anymore, I'm the result of a culture that celebrates thinness and equates that to worth.. I've punished my entire life and I am finally free."

Revealing she's been receiving positive comments for losing weight, and that these made her uncomfortable.



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mzgrottesca

May 3 2021, 23:39:17 UTC 1 week ago Edited:  May 4 2021, 00:02:43 UTC

People don't really understand that anorexia doesn't always make you skinny. I struggled with it pretty severely growing up. In high school I was in and out of the hospital, had seizures from hypoglycemia, constantly fainting and getting sent to the ER, bad EKGs with heart palpitations etc.

Even with me not eating, losing weight and having my hair falling out, doctors never pegged it as an eating disorder because at my thinnest I was 130 lbs. My mom always though it was just some mystery medical problem that cured itself until I told her I was actually severely starving myself that entire time lol.

ETA: oops I didn't mean to pull a Tyra and make this all about me lmaooo rather, I just wanted to point out that even doctors don't realize you can have an eating disorder without being rail skinny!
you didn't pull a tyra! you're simply sharing your experience. i hope you're doing well in your journey with it.
we see u OP.

anyways, wish ha luck on her health journey.
Struggling with being unhappy with your weight loss or body shape is a complex issue that has become an even stranger journey in the digital era. I’ve known several people who have started weight loss journey “fanpages” on Instagram, etc.
That added pressure has always seemed insane to me and I’ve known at least 2-3 people off the top of my head who made weight loss pages and failed to lose significant weight. That would just be so crushing for me. I prefer to just say I haven’t started trying to lose weight when I look bad in a pic or whatever.
I'm currently in therapy for my eating disorder and it's hard. I've had them since I was 11 years old (38 now). I've had different versions but right now I'm overweight. It's hard cause I'm not allowed to diet and thus will be overweight for a bit. It's difficult. I really hope I get better and get an healthy relationship with food and my body...
ED therapy is probably one of the hardest things I've ever done, and I did a form of exposure therapy (with a therapist who traumatised me lmao) for my anxiety.

We can't live without food, it's not something we can just drop and never think about again. And we are constantly surrounded by a thriving and growing culture that encourages disordered eating. These factors make meaningful change so hard. And once you get into discussing your ED, it starts to breed resentment and anger and most of all shame. I've been in therapy for my ED for around two years at this point and I still haven't been able to talk to my therapist about some of the things I think about my body because I'm so ashamed of myself for thinking them. I know they're wrong. But everything around me tells me that thin me is better.
This is so recognizable! The shame, the thoughts that sabotage me, the irrational believes. Also about HAVING to eat is so so hard. I'm sorry for the way the therapist treated you. It's so important you don't feel judged. I wish you the best <3
as somebody who has been in recovery for just over 10 years you CAN reach a place where you have a good relationship with food and your body, I promise! I am so much happier now than I ever was during my ED and even though that ED voice isn't completely gone, it is now just a faint whisper that appears every now and then vs. the constant voice in your head. Good luck BB! <3

melispurple

1 week ago

anderbobo

1 week ago

melispurple

1 week ago

nougatt

May 4 2021, 00:03:05 UTC 1 week ago Edited:  May 4 2021, 00:04:02 UTC

Her house looks cozy. I hope she gets the support and help she needs. It must be terrible dealing with the illness and stupid stranger comments on top of it

I have a thyroid problem and sometimes it gets out of whack and my weight plummets. I get so many shitty comments because I can look super thin during those times.
If you are close enough to talk about the reasons and how they feel that’s one thing but in general: Just don’t comment on someone else’s weight/body. You never know how a person feels about their body or any changes to it, and you never know the reason it’s changing.
I was 99 pounds at my thinnest it actual basically turned into a competition with the girls I was in PHP with. Like it was suppose to be therapy but it was actually toxic. Even my therapist admitted she hated the program. I got threatened impatient unless I got 103 and of course I didn't make it and ended up there.

I am 143 and am so uncomfortable rn and still struggle with bulimia but still feel a lot better physical. ED's are really toxic no matter your size.

People are way to quick to judge I wish her the best
Being isolated and unemployed def triggered my ED and body obsession again. It's so tiring. I hope she finds peace with her body.
damn, i wish her the best in recovery. being in the public eye is brutal with strangers constantly stating their unsolicited opinions about you (yes, i know this is ontd lol)

i think i have binge eating tendencies/am a mild binge eater. i derive way too much happiness from food. but i’m asian, so we have such weird relationships with food imo. your elders keep filling your plate growing up (its rude to say no) and you can’t waste food, so i struggle with portion control. and at the same time they want you to look thin, lmao, so i also exercise a lot to stay thin. i was lucky that my metabolism was crazy good until the last few years so i’m finally trying to unlearn all these bad eating habits i developed.

relationships with food is hard. its such a fine line to cross into the opposite direction into just a new disordered eating (ie obsessively counting calories/dieting). i feel like a lot of my friends have various issues with their relationships with food in some way or another.
Ugh as someone from the southern US, I understand these messed up habits so much. I was taught as a kid that I was not allowed to leave anything on my plate because it was a sin, but also my parents and grandparents would put huge portions on my plate and then not let me leave the table until I ate it all. I don't blame them, because they were raised the same way and they grew up in extreme poverty so I understand avoiding waste, but it has led to life-long problems with portion control. I don't feel "full" unless I have eaten wayyyyy too much.
I’m trying to learn the difference between being full and feeling full. It’s really hard. I use food for comfort and it’s gotten to be something I can’t control. It’s hard.
I got diagnosed with atypical anorexia because my BMI was ~normal~.
I was surprised to find out that part of the criteria for an anorexia diagnosis is being underweight. ED therapy and recovery is such a clusterfuck. Sometimes it feels like you have to look and sound like an example from a PSA to be taken seriously by a professional.

shatteredglass

May 4 2021, 00:40:33 UTC 1 week ago Edited:  May 4 2021, 00:42:19 UTC

I am sorry don't get me wrong but why are you offended by that? I am not coming at you but there are different ED's and each have nothing wrong with them? .

I am eating disorder non-specified I am not considered "anorexic" or "bulimic".

Sorry idgi at least you are being recognized for your disorder it doesn't mean it can't change in the future. Idk sorry this just hit a nerve sorry
I'm not offended just stating that I was diagnosed with something different due to my size unlike her.

shatteredglass

1 week ago

the only difference between a diagnosis of anorexia nervosa and atypical anorexia is the weight, so it’s not like they’re different disorders, they have the same behaviors and same effects, and there’s very clear weight bias mixed in there.

also, i say this w love, but saying “at least you got a diagnosis” is incredibly dismissive, esp for ppl w atypical anorexia who have to struggle to even get in the door into an ed specialist to get the diagnosis in the first place bc most ppl don’t take them seriously bc of their weight, and half the time get diet advice as a “treatment”.

shatteredglass

1 week ago

Their comment was very innocuous

shatteredglass

1 week ago

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1 week ago

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That's awful. Maintenance Phase did an episode recently about fat people with eating disorders. Anyone with a certain BMI is diagnosed with "atypical anorexia" because the DSM definition includes a BMI limit.

And apparently there are lots of people who can't get help because of the assumption that you must be thin to be anorexic. The guest they had on talked about clients she had who dealt with some awful effects of anorexia (missed periods, elevated heart rate, fainting upon standing) and they were dismissed by other doctors because of their size.

I hope she can get better.
Not going to read any comments from people about this at the source or anywhere other than here. I wish her the best. Eating disorder recovery is always hard, but when you’re fat there are some unique challenges presented that make a lot recovery harder.
I wish her the best. Eating disorder recovery is so hard. I haven't relapsed in a long time but it's been so tempting lately, I'm just not happy with how I look.
I don't know if it's still the case but it's always worried me how there's a weight limit on being diagnosed with anorexia nervosia.

Telling women who have been starving themselves for ages that they're too heavy to qualify as anorexic seems like a way of exacerbating a serious problem (I've been there - I was "only" 15 pounds underweight and never got treatment, I had to heal myself all on my own and it's completely absurd).
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