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Lauren Jauregi talks how Camila relationship rumors affected her and being outed as queer



Lauren Jauregi was on Becky G's podcast "En La Sala" this week and talked about her long rumored relationship with Fifth Harmony bandmate Camila Cabello, and being outed against her wishes.

[camren]

People thought Camila and I were, like, into each other, and that made me so uncomfortable. Like, disgustingly uncomfortable, because I was queer, but she was not. It made me feel like a predator because of the types of clips people would put together and the types of stories people would write and that type of stuff, I was always the aggressor, and I was always the one turning her and I was always the one who was, like, the ‘masculine’ energy in the scenario. And it made me very uncomfortable because that’s not how I identify. And that’s not to say, that that’s wrong to identify like that…. But I did not identify that way, and I also did not have that connection with her.

Camila and I were just very good friends at that time. We respected each other, we would talk, we would look at each other, we had love for each other. In the Latinx culture, I don't know about you, I was very affectionate with all of my friends. We would tell each other shit that yeah maybe you would think we were gay if you were listening over but we weren't. That wasn't the interaction so that actually made me so uncomfortable.

To this day, I hyper-analyze every connection that I have with a girl because I don’t want to make them feel that I’m looking at them that way, because to this day, [fans] are convinced that that was real.

And I can't do anything to change it. Because even when I talk about it—and I don't talk about it because I've learned to just ignore it because it was just so traumatizing for me…that it was, like, I just chose to ignore it at a certain point because getting angry to them would mean that it was real and validate it more for them. So I was like, okay, then I can’t get angry or defend myself, apparently, because that just makes it more real [for them].

It just really fucked with my head and I wasn't even comfortable telling my parents about it. I wasn't even comfortable telling myself that I was queer, you know? And also, I didn't see Camila that way so it just made me uncomfortable that I could potentially be putting off that kind of vibe onto someone who I wasn't trying to do that with.


[being outed by pigrez hilton]

I was at my uncle and aunt's wedding in New Orleans. We were taking pictures, and I was drunk and my girlfriend was drunk and we took a picture of us kissing. My aunt super innocently posted all the pictures from the photobooth onto her Facebook. And I have fans that are unreal invasive and followed her. They found the picture, and they posted it. And they were posting it everywhere. And I just remember being like, 'Oh my god. Hopefully this doesn't blow up. Hopefully, it's just, like you know, the few fans who found it; it just stays there.' And then Perez Hilton outed me in an article and used the picture. And then it went everywhere.

I have my uncles texting me like "what is going on and what is this??" And I have people asking "are you guys together?" But the people in my life knew, my parents knew and they accepted me. My parents valued our relationship more than their proposed beliefs, and I am blessed because most people in Latinx households get kicked out. Most people end up on the street and homeless, because of this loyalty to a religion that was made by some people and beat into you and your kids.

I was outed and I was like, 'Oh my God this is really traumatizing and I'm just gonna crawl into a cave for a week and not say anything about it at all.' And then I just kind of like was like, 'Okay, it happened, and people know. What am I gonna do?'"

So I wrote that letter to Trump and his supporters for Billboard, and that's where I came out with myself, as myself. I'm owning this, and this is who I am and this is why I feel scared for me and my community right now.


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Tags: camila cabello, fifth harmony, lgbtq / rights, podcasts
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