“When I was 18, that was the first time I was on the cover of a magazine,” Swift tells Variety. “The headline was ‘Pregnant at 18?’ It was because I had worn something that made my lower stomach look not flat. So I just registered that as a punishment." https://t.co/dZvHOTj3FM— Variety (@Variety) January 24, 2020
Taylor Swift’s Netflix documentary, “Miss Americana,” officially premiered at Sundance on Thursday. In it, the singer is opening up about her relationship with food and her struggle with an eating disorder. [TW just in case]In the doc she says, “I tend to get triggered by something — whether it’s a picture of me where I feel like my tummy looked too big, or someone said that I looked pregnant or something — and that will trigger me to just starve a little bit. Just stop eating.”
Swift goes on to reveal that she eventually got down to a size double zero, and would often feel as if she was going to pass out during her concerts, specifically during the 1989 Tour. “I thought that I was supposed to feel like I was going to pass out at the end of a show, or in the middle of it,” she says in the documentary. “Now I realize, no, if you eat food, have energy, get stronger, you can do all these shows and not feel (enervated).”
In the film, then-and-now photos illustrate just how thin Swift had gotten during the “1989” era, compared to how she looked by the time she toured for “Reputation” in 2018. “I would have defended it to anybody who said ‘I’m concerned about you,’” she says. “‘What are you talking about? Of course I eat. I exercise a lot.’ And I did exercise a lot. But I wasn’t eating.”
Swift says today she’s a size 6 and doesn’t care as much. “I don’t think you know you’re doing that when you’re doing it gradually. There’s always some standard of beauty that you’re not meeting. Because if you’re thin enough, then you don’t have that ass that everybody wants, but if you have enough weight on you to have an ass, then your stomach isn’t flat enough,” she says. “It’s all just fucking impossible.”
Read a more detailed article with more quotes at the source. “Miss Americana” hits Netflix on January 31st.