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NikkieTutorials: “I’m coming out”



“I was born in the wrong body, which means that I am transgender”

- says she’s wanted to talk about it for a while but could never figure out when the best time to do it would be.
- some people tried to blackmail her, which is what finally forced her hand.
- at the age of 6 grew her hair out and by 7/8 wore “girls clothes only”. Her mum was extra supportive, so were her teachers. Basically says that kids will be kids, which can give you an idea about some of her classmates’ reactions I guess.
- started taking hormones and “growth stoppers” at age 14. Had fully transitioned by age 19 (while already being a youtuber)
- talks about her fiancé, and how she waited to reveal this information and how she wishes she’d told him sooner. “At the point where I told him my full story, of course he was shocked, but that is a private matter that we’re dealing with, and that I’m so proud of, that we’re able to deal with”. Refers to her fiancé as special, kind-hearted, strong and inspiring.
- says that if you are in the same situation as her, and have fallen in love with someone, you have to tell them, that “it’s what they deserve”. “The sooner, the better”, she continues, but not until you feel you’re in good, safe hands.
- has a special message for those who tried to blackmail her.
- says she’s still the same person, she’s still Nikkie.

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it's awful that she was forced to discuss this before she was completely ready because someone was trying to blackmail her. i'm glad that she has supportive people in her life though
IDK if this talks about how progressive/open the Netherlands are, buy the fact that she had 100% full support from her mom and teachers has to do a lot with how she transitioned.

Of course is hard, of course is a very sensitive matter to do it, but having the most important people in your life support that is key imo.
The school bit surprised me as well. I wondered if that was typical for the Netherlands back then* or just her school.
*I mean she’s not old, but a lot of ground has been covered since the 90s. (A lot of ground has been lost too.)
I dont know how my school would have dealt with trans issues, but a (maybe?) somewhat related anecdote about Dutch schools. At my catholic primary school in a very provincial city, a (female) kindergarden teacher (she was my fav when I was little) married the (female) vice principal. And they had this whole special wedding procession moment at school after their wedding. Must have been just after gay marriage got legalised, so 2001 or 2002.

marrymejoejonas

1 week ago

dinkerd

1 week ago

A lot of schools nowadays are way more supportive of this, especially in liberal cities like Portland, Oakland, etc. that if you have the means and resources you can find a place that will support your child. Unfortunately, most places aren't like that and most people aren't accepting and even if they are don't have the money to move their kid around. It sucks.
it's horrific someone tried to out her, but aw, she seems really happy and relieved in the video, so good for her. she's one of the only beauty youtubers i still pay attention to, she's so talented.
I am speechless.
Damn fuck those people who tried to blackmail her. I’ve always had a soft spot for Nikki. I’m glad she has supportive people in her life.
Damn. Was not at all expecting this. Unfortunate circumstances for sure but at least she has supportive people around her, including her fiancé.
First time watching a video of her, she seems sweet.
Sucks that she was forced into speaking her truth in such a way.
But, good for her.
Do you friend!
Wow, it’s horrible she was forced to come out but I’m glad to hear she has a good support system behind her.
I had no idea. The people blackmailing her are garbage.

She always seemed so sweet, good for her living her best life. I wish her the best.
I am happy for her but also really angry for her that asshole people forced her hand to have this discuss this at this point or in a way that she might not have been ready for.
Wow, way to go on her for finally feeling comfortable, I would be scared too. My friend's wife came out as FtM a few years ago and it eventually ended the relationship, though they still live together for financial reasons and are friends, it's a sticky situation.
It’s blowing my mind that people can get married and still not know the other person has already transitioned? Or maybe I’m reading it wrong
Yeah, that's rly shocking to me. The way she's speaking about it makes it sound like this only became known to her fiance after they got married, which raises some questions for me but it's not rly any of our business so...

dinkerd

1 week ago

mzgrottesca

1 week ago

dinkerd

1 week ago

Says the wife came out as FtM so I'm reading that as transitioning after being married?

tucker

1 week ago

marrymejoejonas

January 13 2020, 23:51:41 UTC 1 week ago Edited:  January 13 2020, 23:52:40 UTC

Sorry, I probably wasn't being clear- they came out and transitioned during their marriage.

tucker

1 week ago

For some weird reason I've always suspected this, even though I don't make it a habit to question people's gender.

I think it's because she reminds me of a white... well, fuck, I forgot his name, is it Patrick? He's also a youtube makeup guru.

Anywho, good for her. Hope her relationship works out.
patrickstarrr!
Yes, him! Idk why but my brain so easily associates the two of them. It must be the round/flawless faces.
That video was really moving. I’m super happy for her that she was able to transition surrounded by a loving family and community 💖 And bless her fiance for being understanding and supportive of her!
ordinarily i roll my eyes a bit at platitudes about being yourself (i'm wlw and being myself has brought me nothing but pain at this point) but her video brought me to tears

the amount of fear in her voice struck at something very deeply embedded within myself - that fear is the reason i still refer to liking men and 'future husbands' even when i'm among people i'm out to

that fear that

no matter how safe you think you are
(whether because you're passing like nikkie, or you're out, like me)

the people you love may one day, suddenly, openly choose to hate you for your gender/sexuality

the fear that they've hated you all along and maybe you can make them forget you ever said anything

fuck, this is so hard
i'm so proud of her, so happy for her, so happy she's free

hope i can be that free one day
I hope you can be too. Platitudes are mostly annoying I agree, but loving yourself is so important and even if you can never feel fully safe or free around people (which I hope and believe that you one day will), know that who you are is important, good, and deserves to feel safe and loved.
thank you so much, this is so sweet of you 💕 it's a lifelong journey, i'm getting there slowly!
this comment was really moving. hoping for freedom for you too 💜
I'm not out but I feel this. I want to feel free.
Her eyes are fucking gorgeous.
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