still a jerk playing with matches (outxofxcontext) wrote in ohnotheydidnt,
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NikkieTutorials: “I’m coming out”

“I was born in the wrong body, which means that I am transgender”

- says she’s wanted to talk about it for a while but could never figure out when the best time to do it would be.
- some people tried to blackmail her, which is what finally forced her hand.
- at the age of 6 grew her hair out and by 7/8 wore “girls clothes only”. Her mum was extra supportive, so were her teachers. Basically says that kids will be kids, which can give you an idea about some of her classmates’ reactions I guess.
- started taking hormones and “growth stoppers” at age 14. Had fully transitioned by age 19 (while already being a youtuber)
- talks about her fiancé, and how she waited to reveal this information and how she wishes she’d told him sooner. “At the point where I told him my full story, of course he was shocked, but that is a private matter that we’re dealing with, and that I’m so proud of, that we’re able to deal with”. Refers to her fiancé as special, kind-hearted, strong and inspiring.
- says that if you are in the same situation as her, and have fallen in love with someone, you have to tell them, that “it’s what they deserve”. “The sooner, the better”, she continues, but not until you feel you’re in good, safe hands.
- has a special message for those who tried to blackmail her.
- says she’s still the same person, she’s still Nikkie.

Tags: beauty / makeup, internet celebrities, lgbtq / rights
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Man, fuck those blackmailers. How gross.
Blackmail is so fucked up. Either you're threatening people with things that aren't wrong but are extremely private, or you're willing to keep quiet on something that is wrong as long as you get something out of it. Absolute losers.
Right, they're essentially weaponizing the world's bigotry/violence toward trans people against her. Makes me so mad.
Wow just found out she is 6'2? For some reason, I thought we were the same height (5'4-5'5). I'm happy for her and hope she presses charges against that blackmailer. They shouldn't be able to get away with this tbh.
all dutch people i know are tall af
Yes, I'm 5'6 and feel small sometimes :(
Yeah my bff is Dutch and she’s the shortest in her family at 6’1. I feel like a 5 year old when my 5’1 self goes to her parents place for dinner lol
i used to go to school with like three dutch families, and ALL of them were over 6ft.
I saw her on that makeup show "Glow Up" and was like WHOA she's tall!


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Just watched Glow Up on Netflix, she’s on an episode and she is so tall


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I’m always shocked by how short/tall Ytbers are or how they ‘actually’ look because I’m just used to seeing them sitting down in front of a camera. Some I imagined to be really tall and then they were like 5’4
Oh, wow! She's *tall* tall. I thought she was "tall" like 5'9".
Same, poor Nikki :(
I definitely thought she was 5'4. I think I just naturally expect most women to be smaller than me tho lol
I can't judge people's height for shit - I follow gymnastics and most of the women are so small that when you see a gymnast at 5"4 she looks like a giant!
Is attempted blackmail a crime? If not, it should be.
pretty sure attempted blackmail is blackmail. she was blackmailed. right?
That makes sense, lol. I just didn’t want that search in my goog history. Yes, she was blackmailed.
It is in The Netherlands, where I assume this took place
God this is disgusting that someone was doing this to her. There’s a special place in hell for people like this.
I feel guilty for saying that I'm really surprised. Like it sounds problematic to say - is it? Anyway, she's incredibly talented. Unfortunate she had to do this bc of blackmail, but she'll get a lot of support
imo i think most people have a rather stereotypical view of what a transwoman is supposed to look like because the transwomen we see in the media are typically very "passing". its problematic but doesn't make you or anyone else who had this initial response a bad person. longterm societal conditioning does that to you. it's good you thought about it/made yourself aware! :)
Honestly coming out will forever haunt me. I had to do it bc my secret bf died and I needed to go to the funeral. It's been nearly 8 years and even in my current relationship I'm still opening up about somethings to my parents and idk sometimes I feel like my bf doesn't get it.
that sounds fucking rough, I'm sorry
I'm sending you hugs hun.


January 13 2020, 21:21:11 UTC 1 month ago Edited:  January 13 2020, 21:21:53 UTC

I'm so sorry you're dealing with that. We have a whole ass ONTD discord, sis. If you ever feel like venting about shit without anyone judging, we're there. If you need a link, lmk! <3
oh my lord

first, my condolences and second I hope you are finding ways to heal sis 💖

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Hurts my heart every time you mention this :C

I can't even begin to imagine how it felt, and still continues to feel for you :(
I remember you mentioning this before.

Virtual hugs.
We love you bb
<3 im so sorry to hear this.
People who blackmail are scum of the earth. Im shocked by this, but Im happy she got to do it on her own terms.
i hope she can sue those who attempted to blackmail her, wtf
I hope these blackmailers are prosecuted
How gross for someone to try and blackmail her.
I love her
blackmailing people to come out is truly vile. i'm happy she's secure enough in her life and work that she can still make the best of this situation. also glad to hear her mom was so supportive of her throughout her life <3
Despite the circumstances, I'm glad she was able to tell her truth. But also, she's only 25????
Lmaoo she and her fiance were talking about that in another video and I feel bad cuz that's definitely not the age I thought she was
I’m shook!
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