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NikkieTutorials: “I’m coming out”



“I was born in the wrong body, which means that I am transgender”

- says she’s wanted to talk about it for a while but could never figure out when the best time to do it would be.
- some people tried to blackmail her, which is what finally forced her hand.
- at the age of 6 grew her hair out and by 7/8 wore “girls clothes only”. Her mum was extra supportive, so were her teachers. Basically says that kids will be kids, which can give you an idea about some of her classmates’ reactions I guess.
- started taking hormones and “growth stoppers” at age 14. Had fully transitioned by age 19 (while already being a youtuber)
- talks about her fiancé, and how she waited to reveal this information and how she wishes she’d told him sooner. “At the point where I told him my full story, of course he was shocked, but that is a private matter that we’re dealing with, and that I’m so proud of, that we’re able to deal with”. Refers to her fiancé as special, kind-hearted, strong and inspiring.
- says that if you are in the same situation as her, and have fallen in love with someone, you have to tell them, that “it’s what they deserve”. “The sooner, the better”, she continues, but not until you feel you’re in good, safe hands.
- has a special message for those who tried to blackmail her.
- says she’s still the same person, she’s still Nikkie.

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Tags: beauty / makeup, internet celebrities, lgbtq / rights
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Unfortunate circumstances but so happy for her
she seems to genuinely love her fiancée I hope they work through it. she always seems so nice and excited about what she does. sucks people are so scummy they would try to blackmail her ):
this is truly shocking. sucks she had to come out because of blackmail
yeah. i had no idea. she is such a beautiful woman
when I saw "I'm coming out" I thought it would be with either her own makeup line or like as bisexual or something, did NOT expect this at all.

also had no idea she was only 25, I thought she was like 30 and she'd already fully transitioned by the time she was on youtube
all of this, lol

That's what I thought, I saw the thumbnail and went "ugh, here we go" expecting more of the usual youtube fuckery but I'm genuinely shocked!! sucks that she had to come out because of blackmail.

(also, 25??? what??)

I think the makeup ages her - like it does for most people. In her makeup free photos I think she looks about 25.

mzgrottesca

2 months ago

all these youtube gurus look way older than they actually are because of all the fillers and nasty makeup
sucks that she felt the need to do this because of some asshole trying to blackmail her but I hope her all the best!
I don’t really know anything about trans surgery but I’m kind of surprised it was so good that your sex partner couldn’t tell. That’s cool, I guess. I do think it’s weird to get married to someone without telling them that tho
that was the thing that made me "mmm" like he didn't know at all until she was blackmailed? that sucks for them.
I've heard (I'm not an expert so take it with a grain of salt) that vaginoplasty tends to have way better results than phalloplasty.
Yep, a cruel biological reality (for trans men). It is MUCH easier to create a vagina - to the point that if done right, it is virtually indistinguishable. The problem used to be that they couldn’t get wet (which could be overcome with lube etc) but according to my friend who’s researching bottom surgery for herself, that’s now possible.

Constructing a penis doesn’t even come close. iirc you can get one that looks fine but it’s impossible to get an erection
Yea, I'd definitely feel a certain way if I married someone and then learned they withheld such a big piece of their life from me.
That shocked me too! Doctors are amazing lmao
It's not specified when she told her fiance so it could have been earlier in their relationship before they got that intimate? Not everyone fucks on the first date lol. But that said, most men don't exactly know the inner workings of the vagina and surrounding area (especially given how few of them manage to find the clit), so it wouldn't surprise me if he didn't notice it was a neovagina.
I don't know how a partner couldn't tell? You need to use dilators to stop the neovagina closing up and have to be vigilant about keeping it clean, otherwise you're vulnerable to pH imbalances and infections.

mzgrottesca

2 months ago

kamomil

2 months ago

Right? I'm like HOW
men can’t tell, especially if they were using protection. they just stick themselves in a hole

senshicalico

2 months ago

presidentmlissa

2 months ago

(str8) men are dumb
As if cis-men pay any attention to anything when it comes to vaginas other than sticking their dick in it.

kamomil

2 months ago

who's to say they were even fucking then? not everyone's relationships include sex at the beginning.
I have a lesbian friend who was in a relationship with a trans woman for many years. She was with her pre op and post op and said her gf's vagina looked like a cis woman's post op.

(TERFs, do not say she isn't a lesbian! She only dates people who identify as women or women-aligned non-binary. She does not date trans men or cis men.)

diamantfabriken

2 months ago

her_schism

2 months ago

honey_wheeler

2 months ago

I wonder what her plan was if he'd said "Let's start trying for a baby" or "I want to see pics of you as a baby / kid."
She never said she told him after they got engaged though.

__nocturna

2 months ago

It's sad that she was forced to talk about it because some asshole tried to blackmail her, but she seems genuinely happy
it's awful she was basically forced to do this, i wish her the best.
omg wtf @ the blackmail part, scumbags. i hope this took a weight off her, congrats to her.
her family sounds great
Her mom is an absolute doll. She's so cute and shy whenever she is in Nikki's channel. She's even more amazing now that this has come out, not batting an eye and going to bat for her daughter
her mom has always seem really chill and sweet, I'm not surprised but happy for her to have that support
Oh wow. This is intense. So terrible that someone tried to blackmail her.
Congrats to her. I hope she’s happy and that her fiancé is supportive. And who whoever was blackmailing her can go to hell.
It's really fucking terrible that she's been blackmailed because of this, but good for her. I wish her all the best.
It's my understanding that she is European, but her accent sounds fully American. Was I lied to by the internet?
She’s Dutch but I think she’s talked about learning English from American media or something.
That makes sense, but it makes me jealous that I could never pick up foreign languages from media like that.

cheeseasauras

2 months ago

dinkerd

2 months ago

Dutch is the closest language linguistically to English. So maybe it was a easy jump?
She's dutch
Most dutch people I've met have little to no accent (in french at least)
She used to have a pretty thick Dutch accent when she was younger, but I guess she gradually lost it.

kels

January 13 2020, 20:51:53 UTC 2 months ago Edited:  January 13 2020, 20:53:42 UTC

Wikipedia says that she's Dutch. I've never watched any of her videos or heard her speak before, but I can definitely hear an accent in this video. It's not super strong but still very obvious to me.

save_me_xenu

2 months ago

drunkenclaudius

2 months ago

devourlove

2 months ago

nutmegdealer

2 months ago

kels

2 months ago

dinkerd

2 months ago

Mte. She sounds like she's straight out of Minnesota.

mzgrottesca

2 months ago

dreamcomealive

2 months ago

I definitely hear her Dutch accent. It's hardly noticeable but it's there.
Watching her do a YouTube video in Dutch was really shocking cuz she has almost no accent, but now that you mention it I think her accent was a lot thicker at the start of her career
She sounds like almost American to me. Like there is just a little tinge if an accent.

Sorts like the skarsgaard brothers. They can play American but there is a little something off.
Dutch people have crazy good American English accents.
talks about her fiancé, and how she waited to reveal this information and how she wishes she’d told him sooner. Says they are dealing with it and that it’s a private matter.

Wait, does this (dealing with it) imply that they're still dealing with it in the sense that the fiance only recently found out?? Or is that just OP's phrasing?

Wow @ the blackmail, that is incredibly shitty.
OP’s wording.

She says in the video they are doing fine and she is lucky to have a partner who is so understanding.
Oh, phew. I hope they make it work/are happy together. But that is a big thing to keep hidden from a loved one!
oh glad to read this
omg thank god, the way the post was phrased was nagl
That’s great, the wording in the post made it sound like it was an issue.
nah, I watched it and I think it's heavily implied she told him as a result of the blackmail but they basically have come out the other side before actually releasing this video. it sounds like it's still not something completely 100% resolved but resolved enough that theyre still together and supporting each other.

this is just what ive gotten from what she said.

kashiyaek

2 months ago

I’m guessing she only just told him before releasing the video
in the video she said he of course knows, but didn't at first, and that he's wonderful and they are dealing with it privately. she didn't allude to when he found out, but she mentions that she tells her partners once she feels comfortable with them, so I would assume he knew before they got engaged? idk i've only watched one of her videos prior to this, but that's what I would guess from the context. he has known since they got serious and she felt she could trust him.
I was paraphrasing a little bit, hard to fit the whole thing in the bullet points! She starts talking about her fiancé at around 9:20 if you want to skip to it. “At the point where I told him my full story, of course he was shocked, but that is a private matter that we’re dealing with, and that I’m so proud of that we’re able to deal with”. She also also says he’s very special and the most kind-hearted man in her life. So I think they are working through it, but in a positive way? I’ll add the line about him being kind-hearted, though, to make things clearer.

rubidium

2 months ago

outxofxcontext

2 months ago

Nikkie didn't say specifically when he found out, but did say that it was shocking to him, that they're dealing with it privately and that she wishes she told him sooner. The impression I got from the video is that he didn't know until recently.

jellycar

2 months ago

devourlove

2 months ago

I've watched it twice and it seems she did kinda imply he may have just found out through all this, because she said they clicked and he didn't know, but he knows now and he was shocked when she told him and that they are dealing with it privately and he's supportive. Then she says she wishes she would have told him sooner. So too me, it seems like this is new to him too, but that he is standing by her while they deal with it still, privately.
No it's not OPs wording. She was really vague about when he found out and everything points to recent
To be honest that part worried me. I want so much for her to be happy since I heard her previous ex cheated or something, but if she had to just tell the guy...but at the same time, she doesnt look stupid. I'm assuming they must have talked about children at some point and he must have said that he didnt want any. If that happened, then I'd completely understand feeling no pressure to say any more than she had to. but if they never talked about kids yet and he might actually want them that's gonna be awkward to work though. I'm really hoping for the best. I dont know why, but I actually feel scared for her somehow. Don't want to see her hurt if he up and runs after gushing about him so much.
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