"I can't remain silent any longer. The passing of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain has made me want to speak up about my mental illness. I have been experiencing suicidal ideation and cyclical obsessive suicidal thoughts for the past four years." https://t.co/cqtSeBizwb— E! News (@enews) June 11, 2018
After the recent deaths of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain, Lady Gaga opened up about her own struggles with mental health while presenting her mother, Cynthia Germanotta, with an award on Sunday for Global Changemakers.
"I can't remain silent any longer. The passing of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain has made me want to speak up about my mental illness. [Reading from a friends letter] I have been experiencing suicidal ideation and cyclical obsessive suicidal thoughts for the past four years," she said. "At first, I thought I was alone and a bad person, but once I was brave enough to tell my friends and family—tould they just think I was looking for attention? Would I be immediately hospitalized against my will? I was able to be honest with my psychiatrist. The honesty was met with genuine love and concern and loads of support from my mental health team. I began to meet others like me. I know I am lucky to have support like this, but there is so much help out there if you have the courage to be honest with yourself and others about what you are going through."
She then spoke about her own struggles. "I have struggled for a long time, both being public and not public about my mental health issues or my mental illness. But, I truly believe that secrets keep you sick."
"I realize that it's actually safer to say how I feel. What Children Mending Hearts is doing today rocks because it's safer for others who feel like me," she said.
"Thank you Mom for not being afraid of my darkest thoughts and for doing what many don't realize goes very far: just holding my hand and running an organization that helps hold the hands of others and join the hands of others. I love you," she told Germanotta. "Suicidal ideation feels like a spell and we have to have empathy. Be kind and help each other break that spell and live and thrive."