Leonard Cohen has died at 82.

An incredibly poignant and talented musician. An important musical influence in my life and certainly in many others. RIP

RIP

Fuck this year in particular.

I have so many memories of my grandpa intertwined with his songs. I am gutted.

RIP 😢

Oh man, this is awful, and yet the artistic legacy he leaves is boundless.

I'm not okay.

I don't usually feel so upset when artists die, but it's different with Leonard Cohen.
I started listening to him as a teenager. I think the first song I heard from him was "Famous Blue Raincoat" and that made me start listening to my mum's old CDs of his songs.

She really loved him too and it became a shared thing for us. I think she liked 'Suzanne' the most because she felt that it described her on some level. We didn't have much in common so that was nice. We found out that he would hold a concert nearby and went, she was unsure whether she would be able to stay the whole show due to her panic attacks, but it went well and the show was great. I think he was 78 then and he was jumping around the stage with the energy of a much younger man.

Almost two years ago, she said she wanted his newest album for Christmas. I went out and bought a physical copy for her but I never got the chance to give it to her, because she died suddenly the next day. It is still sitting wrapped in plastic somewhere in my bookcase, hidden away with the few other physical CDs I still have (all Cohen, I think). I don't know, maybe I will listen to it later to remember them both, but it's still very painful.

Rest in peace, Leonard.

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I honestly feel like hope is dead. If it wasn't for my mom, I honestly think I would have committed suicide this week. I'm making a doctors appointment tomorrow bc I'm realizing this is not getting better on its own.