(Forgive spelling & grammar)
I won! I won! I won!!! Tuesday, I was at the Melbourne Cup - I backed a horse called ‘Fiorente’ to come first – It did! – I was elated! That evening feeling pretty pleased with myself, I saw online around 11pm that my new single (just released in Australia) had come in at number #94… I laughed nervously, god that’s really bad! (Deep down I was gutted).
So for the final show of Australia’s Got Talent – I asked myself what are my options? (They were expecting me to perform the new single) Could I still perform the song at #94? I could pretend it hasn’t happened? Denial? Hide my disappointment? Unleash the fighter... Sing the song with ‘magnificent’ gusto doing my best to promote it up the charts… Maybe I could get it to a respectful number ‘30’? Or even ‘60’?
But is this me now? To keep pushing, so my pride wouldn’t feel so hurt?
Or maybe I admit this song just hasn’t connected?
What I do know is this… I need to look back… Remember who I am – where I’ve come from and dust myself off…
As much as I’m afraid to look like a quitter, (because we all want to look like winners right?), I’m not afraid to say – I lost! – Maybe I need to learn how to lose well in order to be a good winner?
And, when the sh*t hits the fan – we are reminded who loves us. So, on Sunday on the final show of Australia’s Got Talent The Decider on Channel 9 – Winner or loser – I’m going to sing something that feels honest, just like home, for you and I, for all of us.
Lots of love
p.s. Thanks to Fiorente who came 1st, and to the 393 people – who made my song 94 – I wont forget this magic number. Win or lose, either way, it’s liberating to put my hands up when I have!
She performed Wannabe: