I'm sorry everyone I really need help... and it's of topic and I'll probably get made fun of but oh well.
I really want to kill myself, and because suicide hotlines make me extremely nervous I need someone to talk to. My ex best friend turned everyone against me, my boyfriend said if I call him anymore he'll get a restraining order on me (I'm not threatening him..just saying I miss him.. or need advice) because of my ex best friend everyone wished my last suicide attempt was successful and my ex boyfriend won't stick up for me at all.. (these are his friends too)
I've tried being positive, writing in a diary to exercising...I'm starting to feel maybe the world would be a happier place without me. I just want all this pain inside me to stop finally... I don't know what to do. I really don't know anymore.
anyone who makes fun of you for this is a horrible person, your life is definitely worth living and think about your family, they'd want you around. drop those assholes that are in your life right now and please call a hotline or find someone to talk to but don't take your life. THIS IS JUST A MINOR SETBACK.
I'm trying really hard. I suffer depression too and have severe confidence and body image issues. I admit I've thought about suicide a lot even as a little girl but never did it for my parents. These days I'm starting not to care anymore because I just want the hurt to be gone finally. I'm scared my life will never get any better.
Surround yourself with positive people and talk more to family about any depression and anxiety you may feel and focus on more constructive things that dont stress you out.
I'm sorry you got backs turned on you. There's something to live for. YOU are worth living. Please stay strong. Your ex best friend and ex boyfriend suck and don't let their negativity get to you.
You know, I went through something similar earlier this year.. not the suicide part but all of my friends leaving me.
And you know, no matter how lonely you feel right now, it gets better. Try and focus on yourself. Revisit your interests and passions. It took me several months to start feeling better. I felt really empty and I didn't think I'd be happy. Whenever I smiled, I was putting on a front. But now, I find myself genuinely smiling.
Don't live for others. Live for yourself because you owe yourself that. :) If I can climb my way out of a hole, I believe you can too!
Please keep going, bb. Those toxic people don't deserve to be in your life. Sometimes having a supportive, trustworthy person to confide in makes a big difference, whether it's a family member or therapist or hotline operator or someone else. I hope you can find the help that you need.
oh gosh please hang in there! i've been where you are before, i believed that my life could never get any better, but i was WRONG. i know the way you feel is very real, but your brain is telling you lies to keep you feeling that way and make it worse. your life can and will get better. i know that's so hard to believe now, but i promise you it's true. please go to your doctor or a health clinic or any kind of resource you can find and ASK FOR HELP. please <3
i lost one of my best friends to suicide, and not a day goes by that I don't wish she had talked to one of us about what she was going through. the world would not be a happier place without you. please talk to someone. anyone.
i know it seems like things are getting worse and worse with no end in sight, but as cliche as it sounds, it really does get better. get help bb. i know it's scary saying those words out loud, but really if there's anyone you can talk to in your life, talk to them. people may surprise you.
And cut those toxic people out of your life. It's hard to move on, especially when you've invested so much time into relationships and built a trust. Letting another person in after you've been burned is hard. But those people aren't worth your time, and there are more deserving people out there.
I know what it's like to feel that way and anyone who makes fun of you can fuck right off. I have depression, anxiety issues, and struggled with suicidal thoughts for quite some time now. My senior year, I was friendless. It was a gradual thing over the years with losing friends, but I was honestly isolated and alone my senior year; my grad party was thrown by my mom's work and I had no friends there. No invites to any parties, either. It was really dark, alone, and a lot of shit has happened over the years before and after then BUT ANYWAY.
I've been there, done that, and anyone who treats you in that manner isn't a person you want in your life anyway. Them being distant or gone, that's a blessing in disguise because you can do and you deserve better than that. No matter what that nagging voice in your head says or your gut is feeling, life is worth living. It truly is. Those dark spots and moments are just that -- dark spots and moments. And they're tough to get through and leave scars that take a long time to heal or won't go away at all, but they all become memories in some way or another and help form who you are as a person. It doesn't always get completely better, no, and the pain can last. But it can be managed and dealt with in a lot of ways and you can get through it and life gets easier and brighter.
Take time to focus on yourself, your interests, and your passions. Focus on building you up first before dealing with anyone else. When you do that, you'll find the right people who deserve to be with and around you. Use whatever resource you need to get your feelings out and off of your chest. Something that's helped me and my friends in the past is writing. Just write everything, don't stop, don't think about it and get everything in your head onto paper until your hand can't handle it anymore. Take the paper and rip it up, burn it, do something to it. It'll be a huge release.
Find someone to confide in. It can be a therapist, an internet stranger, a hotline. Just someone to talk to who can help you out. You can't get through it alone, but you can get through it in a lot of ways. Someone who's trained is best, but you can't keep it all to yourself. You'll never get past it that way.
Life is worth living and you're someone who's worth something. Don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise.
Also, this is cheesy as fuck, but it makes me feel better every time I listen to it:
the world will not be a happier place without you. it will be a place a little bit sadder for your loss. Even when you think not a single person cares or that everyone would be better without you, it's not true. I know it feels true but it's not. there is always someone who cares. Friends are fickle as fuck and if they can be turned against you they weren't really friends at all and YOU will be better off and happier without THEM in the end. I know trust me I've been there, exactly where you are before and even though every day isn't sunshine and rainbows and even though years later I still have times where I'm like I wish i just wasn't here. I know I have to be, for me it's for my parents, as silly as it sounds my dog, and a small collective of friends but mainly because i will not give anyone that power over me. No one can make me feel like I shouldn't be here and some days its me I have to fight against. But don't give up, I remember when I was there and when I was in a hospital from being there, the main thing was don't give anyone, any of them that power to make you feel like that, don't let them win because it's a loss all around. Beat them by staying and by living and getting better and fighting and although i'm a stranger on the internet if you need someone to help you fight I'm right here for you. PM me anytime and I got your back. You can survive this and you can keep on trying because that's what matters you being happy, you trying..you matter and you deserve to be here no matter what anyone else makes you think or feel. You need to be here, youre valued and someone cares.
These people in your life are TOXIC and need to go. I know what it's like to feel abandoned, but you still have YOU. You are your ticket to getting out of this dark place. You can do it! Like someone else said, do things that make you happy, even if you have to force yourself to do them. If you have to write pages and pages of thoughts in a journal, do it. Perhaps you might try seeking therapy. Or call a hotline; that's what they're there for, to listen. I lost my best friend to suicide in 2005 and let me tell you, it is not pleasant for the people that love you. But more importantly, it isn't pleasant for you because you deserve to live. You will get through this! YOU WILL! I promise you that. There is light up ahead. Don't give up on it, or on yourself.
I'm guessing you live in the US, so here is the number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - 1-800-273-8255. Please call. <3
I don't know if this helps but I think of it this way: We all have only one life. One day, we're going to die a natural death. Why the rush? Why rob yourself of the potentially happiest years of your life on the off chance that they might not come to pass? I understand that you're in a lot of pain and you want it to end but death is not the answer, it's not the end to pain, it's the end to everything, everything amazing that you're still to experience. Sometimes it may seem like you can never be happy again or that you're in a tunnel that only leads one way but that's not true. This is your life, your one life, and if it's not going the way you want it to, you can change it (and I'm not talking about ending it because there's no way of coming back from that). Your friends sound poisonous. If you surround yourself with positive people and rediscover your interests, rediscover what makes life worth living - and there is so much to enjoy, if only by yourself - then you'll look back in a couple of years and think of all the things you'd have missed had you chosen a premature exit.
I promise there are better days to come if you just hang in there. And you know how I know? There were prisoners of concentration camps that took their own lives because they thought the nightmare would never end. I know of one case where three days later, the camp was liberated. There's always going to be hope even if it seems impossible. As long as the future's unknown, you have everything to look forward to. It might be harder to deal with this pain right now (others have given you good links) but in the end, you'll be so grateful for pulling through!
There are more people in the world than just these dicks. And those people, the ones you have yet to meet, will NOT be happier without you. If you don't stick around, you'll never get a chance to meet those people, and they won't have the chance to meet wonderful you. The future holds so many things, things that can instantly be the best thing that's ever happened to you. You owe it to yourself to hang in there and experience those things.
People that turn away from you aren't worth to have in your life in the first place. I know this is a hard time but you do have people that love and care for you. Take this as an opportunity to start fresh, meet new people, even consider moving to a new city to reinvent yourself. Take this blank canvas and paint whatever you want to. Fuck the haters, seriously. You are worth something. They are just projecting their own shitty insecurities on you.
Downloading it and seeing how it turns out this evening. It had the most interesting premise of all the CW pilots but the preview didnt make it look too good and Huff post said it was the worst of new pilots (Even more than BATB) so we'll see how it goes...
Only Robert could make a murderer & pedophile so damn charismatic lol Whenever I think of Prison Break, T-Bag scenes are always top faves (along with Abruzzi's death <3)
I thought the pilot was meh. The only compelling characters were Alona and T-bag's character (or basically anything related to the show, but that was even limited), but the other leads? Meh esp the guy. If we have to follow them for most of the time, it's going to be zzzzz.
So. Many. Tears.
"You make me happy"
:'(
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I really want to kill myself, and because suicide hotlines make me extremely nervous I need someone to talk to. My ex best friend turned everyone against me, my boyfriend said if I call him anymore he'll get a restraining order on me (I'm not threatening him..just saying I miss him.. or need advice) because of my ex best friend everyone wished my last suicide attempt was successful and my ex boyfriend won't stick up for me at all.. (these are his friends too)
I've tried being positive, writing in a diary to exercising...I'm starting to feel maybe the world would be a happier place without me. I just want all this pain inside me to stop finally... I don't know what to do. I really don't know anymore.
And you know, no matter how lonely you feel right now, it gets better. Try and focus on yourself. Revisit your interests and passions. It took me several months to start feeling better. I felt really empty and I didn't think I'd be happy. Whenever I smiled, I was putting on a front. But now, I find myself genuinely smiling.
Don't live for others. Live for yourself because you owe yourself that. :) If I can climb my way out of a hole, I believe you can too!
i know it seems like things are getting worse and worse with no end in sight, but as cliche as it sounds, it really does get better. get help bb. i know it's scary saying those words out loud, but really if there's anyone you can talk to in your life, talk to them. people may surprise you.
And cut those toxic people out of your life. It's hard to move on, especially when you've invested so much time into relationships and built a trust. Letting another person in after you've been burned is hard. But those people aren't worth your time, and there are more deserving people out there.
I've been there, done that, and anyone who treats you in that manner isn't a person you want in your life anyway. Them being distant or gone, that's a blessing in disguise because you can do and you deserve better than that. No matter what that nagging voice in your head says or your gut is feeling, life is worth living. It truly is. Those dark spots and moments are just that -- dark spots and moments. And they're tough to get through and leave scars that take a long time to heal or won't go away at all, but they all become memories in some way or another and help form who you are as a person. It doesn't always get completely better, no, and the pain can last. But it can be managed and dealt with in a lot of ways and you can get through it and life gets easier and brighter.
Take time to focus on yourself, your interests, and your passions. Focus on building you up first before dealing with anyone else. When you do that, you'll find the right people who deserve to be with and around you. Use whatever resource you need to get your feelings out and off of your chest. Something that's helped me and my friends in the past is writing. Just write everything, don't stop, don't think about it and get everything in your head onto paper until your hand can't handle it anymore. Take the paper and rip it up, burn it, do something to it. It'll be a huge release.
Find someone to confide in. It can be a therapist, an internet stranger, a hotline. Just someone to talk to who can help you out. You can't get through it alone, but you can get through it in a lot of ways. Someone who's trained is best, but you can't keep it all to yourself. You'll never get past it that way.
Life is worth living and you're someone who's worth something. Don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise.
Also, this is cheesy as fuck, but it makes me feel better every time I listen to it:
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But don't give up, I remember when I was there and when I was in a hospital from being there, the main thing was don't give anyone, any of them that power to make you feel like that, don't let them win because it's a loss all around. Beat them by staying and by living and getting better and fighting and although i'm a stranger on the internet if you need someone to help you fight I'm right here for you. PM me anytime and I got your back. You can survive this and you can keep on trying because that's what matters you being happy, you trying..you matter and you deserve to be here no matter what anyone else makes you think or feel. You need to be here, youre valued and someone cares.
I lost my best friend to suicide in 2005 and let me tell you, it is not pleasant for the people that love you. But more importantly, it isn't pleasant for you because you deserve to live. You will get through this! YOU WILL! I promise you that. There is light up ahead. Don't give up on it, or on yourself.
I'm guessing you live in the US, so here is the number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - 1-800-273-8255. Please call. <3
I promise there are better days to come if you just hang in there. And you know how I know? There were prisoners of concentration camps that took their own lives because they thought the nightmare would never end. I know of one case where three days later, the camp was liberated. There's always going to be hope even if it seems impossible. As long as the future's unknown, you have everything to look forward to. It might be harder to deal with this pain right now (others have given you good links) but in the end, you'll be so grateful for pulling through!
It had the most interesting premise of all the CW pilots but the preview didnt make it look too good and Huff post said it was the worst of new pilots (Even more than BATB) so we'll see how it goes...
I fucking love him. He'll never not be one of the greatest characters actors on tv. And TBag is truly one of the most iconic tv characters
The only compelling characters were Alona and T-bag's character (or basically anything related to the show, but that was even limited), but the other leads? Meh esp the guy. If we have to follow them for most of the time, it's going to be zzzzz.