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Amber Riley breaks down in tears as she opens up about body image.

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Glee star Amber Riley, who plays the confident Mercedes on the Fox hit, broke down in tears as she admitted her struggles with her body image as a Hollywood actress.

In an honest and moving interview for the MTV series This Is How I Made It, the actress, who is currently making her Broadway debut in Cotton Club Parade revealed how the pressure to be thin has taken its toll.

The 26-year-old, size 16, actress said: 'Hollywood is a very hard place to be in. It really is. Being the person I am, you know, the size I am, being a woman, being a black woman, there's not a lot of roles for us.

'After I did St Sass, I kept on auditioning. I was being offered the girl who sits in the corner and eats all day, the girl who committed suicide because she was fat,' she continued.



'I never wanted to play a character that hated herself. I wanted people to know that those aren't the only roles for people like me, normal girls.'
It took 14 years of battling with her body image for Miss Riley to finally get her dream yes.



'Going to the auditions and having the casting director say you need to loose a little weight, I didn't understand why people couldn't accept me for who I was. And the rejection started wearing on my self-esteem,' she said.

'I'm not going to conform, and hurt myself, and do something crazy to be a size 2,' she explained.

'My parents always instilled knowing that your beautiful, that your fearfully and wonderfully made, and that you know who you are.'
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Even so, the slightly-unsure-of-herself five-foot-two-inch star went through multiple weight fluctuations while growing up in La Mirada, California.

Ultimately, however, she said: 'I'm a healthy person. have great friends around me that are positive.

'That's the key to life, is make your own path, set your own rules. There is no set rule, no set look, no set anything, you make your own rules in life, and your own decisions.'

MTV’s series This Is How I Made It, airs on Saturdays at 12pm.





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timbershiver 20th-Nov-2012 10:00 pm (UTC)
Eww, society, making us all feel we need an eating disorder.

I managed to convince myself the other day that I was happier when I was thin, but then I remembered how unhappy I was when I was thin, because I thought I was fat!

At what point on this fucking planet am I supposed to be happy? Because it wasn't then, and it isn't now.
kwikimart 20th-Nov-2012 10:24 pm (UTC)
THIS!

I'm thin and happy as I am and I feel like I get judged for not loathing my body or not justifying my eating habits.
It's sick how much society wants you to have a complex, you can't just be someone that's 'okay/happy' with how they look at either side of the size spectrum.
Even if you're 'average' (for wherever you live) women are expected to strive to be perfect at all times.
It's a joke.
ride_the_jitney 20th-Nov-2012 10:38 pm (UTC)
I do that all of the time. I feel shitty about myself and think that I was so much happier when I was thinner, but then I read old diary entries and I remember I felt just as shitty. It was never good enough
caketime 20th-Nov-2012 11:12 pm (UTC)
IKR I looked at pictures of me a year ago and I was a really nice weight then but I still felt fat. LIKE WHY. It makes me so, so mad.
verdhandi 20th-Nov-2012 11:21 pm (UTC)
This. I used to obsess way too much about my weight. Then I just stopped, I still don't know how. I gained weight but I don't feel terrible about my weight anymore. I look in the mirror and 9 out of 10 times I'll think I'm beautiful. So even though I'm kinda fat now, I'd really rather just be like this than be miserable again.

Of course I still have days where I feel bad about myself, but these are far and few in between and I guess everybody feels shitty once in a while. It can't be compared to waking up every morning and the first thought being your damn weight.
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