I wanna see this, idk, it looks interesting

I'm texting a guy I met on an online dating site aaaand we've been texting for a little over a week now and I actually REALLY like him (something I can never glean just via text usually). he's really smart and funny and chill, idk

we won't get to meet until the end of the month (my fault; I keep having to go out of town for work) and I'm terrified I'm gonna meet him and he's going to be 1. gross personality-wise, 2. physically gross, 3. completely without ~spark~

I have the hardest time finding someone I want to spend time with romantically. I should probably hit up some therapy bc I just...can't make myself date people if I don't feel that it's ~right~ womp womp