An Anonymous Hollywood Actress Who is Quitting Adderall -- and Speaking Out About The Epidemic
A few weeks ago, I made the decision to quit to Adderall -- for good and for real this time.
After getting a very angry note from an investor, I just flushed my batch down the toilet. (Yes, I heard it was not the eco move to make, but at the time I was swept away with the symbolism. Forgive me.) Dumping my supply for good was not a “should I do this” question. It was really more of an “I have to do this” imperative. I found myself losing friends and on the verge of losing work, too. I looked dead-eyed and soulless and raggedy and gaunt and obvious.
The sad thing? Everyone around me is still on this awful drug. It’s like “Invasion of the Body Snatchers” out here.
And, honestly, I mean everyone. Fellow actresses. Hipster rockers. Waiters. Children of famous people. The rich. The poor. How wealthy you are depends on if you can get a consistent dose of it, but when I quit I told my doctor not to give it to me anymore. So if I want it now, I would have to actually forage through a drug dealer, which I’m not prepared to do. It’s crazy the reputation you get on the drug, though. The other night at the Chateau someone actually asked me if I was “holding.” Unbelievable. No, Los Angeles. I am not holding.
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- access to Britney's tox screen
- assume recent (?) weight gain OR extreme increased gym activity
- not a high earner, or was not when the first prescription was made. Financially disconnected from her parents.
but I never felt the need to pop pills in order to study/revise/write a paper. This mentality is baffling.
Also I feel like everyone is on Adderall, not just ~hollywood~.
So that's like 3.5% of the current US population has a valid way of getting it but between 20% and 30% of all college students are believed to have at some point used Adderall to either study or party.
I was on it my last semester of my college. It was an Adderall+Wellbutrin combo to help me manage my depression and low motivation. I had an internship, 12 credits of classes and a part-time job semester. The drugs *really* helped keep me moving when otherwise I'd have been dead on my feet.
I had no adverse effects with it like jitteryness or insomnia. I frequently napped during the day while I was on it. My prescription was for the extended release edition and never abused it (I may have doubled my dose during finals), which is probably why I had no real problems on it.
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Anyway, best of luck to you, Audrina Patridge.