An Anonymous Hollywood Actress Who is Quitting Adderall -- and Speaking Out About The Epidemic
A few weeks ago, I made the decision to quit to Adderall -- for good and for real this time.
After getting a very angry note from an investor, I just flushed my batch down the toilet. (Yes, I heard it was not the eco move to make, but at the time I was swept away with the symbolism. Forgive me.) Dumping my supply for good was not a “should I do this” question. It was really more of an “I have to do this” imperative. I found myself losing friends and on the verge of losing work, too. I looked dead-eyed and soulless and raggedy and gaunt and obvious.
The sad thing? Everyone around me is still on this awful drug. It’s like “Invasion of the Body Snatchers” out here.
And, honestly, I mean everyone. Fellow actresses. Hipster rockers. Waiters. Children of famous people. The rich. The poor. How wealthy you are depends on if you can get a consistent dose of it, but when I quit I told my doctor not to give it to me anymore. So if I want it now, I would have to actually forage through a drug dealer, which I’m not prepared to do. It’s crazy the reputation you get on the drug, though. The other night at the Chateau someone actually asked me if I was “holding.” Unbelievable. No, Los Angeles. I am not holding.
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